I cannot begin to express how grateful I am to have you in my life, but I will never stop trying to express just that. I never really understood certain things before I met you and began talking to you. You, somehow, broke down my barrier quicker than anyone else ever has…especially for someone that wasn’t internet-based. We met, though. That’s a big deal for me, as hard as it may be to admit it. You, of all people, should understand that I don’t talk very much whenever I meet new people and that when I do talk to new people, I get incredibly nervous and ramble. With you? I don’t know..it seemed and still seems as if things go over a bit more smoothly than how things go with everyone else. You being in my life has helped me come to so many realizations about myself; things that I may have already known but not wanted to openly admit. Thank you for making me talk, and thank you for not allowing me to push you away so easily.
Your perseverance to get me to talk to you is refreshing. Normally whenever I say that I’m fine and I’m not, people don’t question it; however, you do. You’ll irritate the hell out of me until I talk, and despite how irritated with you I may be at that time, once I finish talking things are always so much better. I have come to realize that one of the main things I love about you and I is how open we can be with one another. I love how we both are so similar with the fact that we generally don’t share too much with people, but with each other we can share things we have never shared with anyone. That’s so special to me. Those moments with you are so deeply treasured.
Shaun, we will have been dated for three-quarters of a year in a mere two weeks. How has time gone by so fast? (And yes, I do realize that time is not any more fast or slow; always at a steady rate. ;3 ) It honestly feels like we’ve been dating for a month, maybe, but I also feel so incredibly close to you that it’s unreal. I feel as if we have this six-sense sort of connection with one another. I’ve told you about it before. How we can communicate without words? That’s what I’m talking about. My relationship with you is different from any other relationship I have ever had. I feel things with you that..I’ve, quite frankly, never felt before or even knew I could feel. Things that are indescribably wonderful..things that are absolutely beautiful..things that, in a very literal way, make my heart jump and tickle.
Oh. I could go on and on about you, about us, about the way you make me feel, etc. However, I do feel that I am rambling at this point..I may add to this later. You may not notice it right away. But, Shaun Moseley, I love you dearly. I get to see you in about 12 hours because it’s 3am and I will be there between 2:30 and 3pm today. :) Whenever you read this, wherever you are, and whatever you may be feeling, remember that I love you no matter what. You have forever left an imprint on my life.
P.S. Tonight? You told me that you want to sign up to be a potential bone marrow donor..you told me that you’d willingly donate a kidney. Shaun, you’re so strong and so amazing. You are willing to do something that I fear to do, so that you can potentially save the life of another individual and for that, you completely left me at a loss of words. Yes, I do fear complications if you are chosen to be a bone marrow donor or a kidney donor, but I respect you so much for being so willing to help others —it’s beautiful.